the fence

Toronto to Kingston Aboard Lavalle LRC VIA train - January 1985

I am stretching my Canadian dollar, twenty-four of them, between Toronto and Kingston. "Have your tickets ready! Billets, s'il vous plait."

Lake Ontario repulses me, coldness coming alive in throbbing chilly waves battering ice-piled shores somewhere near Scarborough.

The 401 is closed between London and Woodstock. Still, the Greyhound operator insisted that all arrivals and departures from Toronto were on schedule. My love, my fiance is promised entry into snowbound London.

South of the border - so distantly close - Buffalo is particularly hard hit, snow bound, denying entry or exit. Literally frozen at 42 degrees Fahrenheit. Funny how I still have to qualify degrees. Buffalo is closer than I think.

I'm in car 6203, fumee section, which I notice is shrinking to only a fraction of the available seating. Looking out, through my own smoke, I see the cryptic numbers, figures of a westbound train. We have stopped to let it by. Capacity. Gross wt. Lt. Wt. Retaining valve.

It feels like we're moving, but really the train is moving the other way, surging past. I have a sudden awareness of the train's tradition, surviving power, worth. It's Canadianness. I move backwards, like my perception of this car's movement.

We are zipping along again. I'm conscious of the geography's presence. I am moving through it. It is land locked and there are particularly inspiring scenes with which I wish I could share a few moments landlocked in unison. But the train wings on.

Past coniferous forests, ice covered fields, drifted ditches, snowmobile tracks showing in the strips of land less susceptible to the gusting winds. I order another hot coffee from the trainman.

The snow whips up around the car, blocking out the scenery - whole vistas - the large barn and warm kitchen, hydro towers, elevators of some sort, cold warehouses ( I intuit their emptiness)...

A fence.

A fence seems to follow the train, changing height, shape form and composition, but pursuing undaunted nonetheless.

Antiquated farming gear stranded in a field. A huddle of homes. A pile of junk, grass growing out around it. Monotone grey and white dominant in and through another spiralling gust.

A barn with more holes than boards. A hayloft screaming wind. An apple orchard, trees bending back to earth for cover. Traffic waiting for me to pass. Rolled hay or straw bundles, useless in their senility, snowbound. More whipping snow.

I prepare my coffee. I turn to inner visions. Why do I admire the straight lines of power coursing through the geography, defying snow, wind, cold and ice? That same power courses through me. Why do all of the seats in the train face backwards? Why do I feel smug and secure with my Globe and Star in the seat beside me?

Al Purdy's Piling Blood is beneath my sheet of lined paper, giving my pen a better surface on which to write. The man to my left is drinking Molson's Golden, smooth like single bar lines. He ordered another. Is the sun over the yard arm?

Yes, it is pretty high in the sky, pushing aside the grey in a small orb. I'm awed by all of the straight lines in this wilderness. That fence is relentless, now torpedoing into a drift. It breaks only for roadways, any perpendiculars. Is there a pecking order to this geometry?

The traffic is scared by the distant warnings of this rocking horse. I see the cars huddle back, shivering; the drivers hunch down and peer through small clear portholes in their windshields.

I am complacent in this seat. Is that it?

I am hypnotised by the dancing regularities of the fence following me. Even where the snow buries the fence I feel it there following me like some sinister submarine. I see the occasional poles of weathered wood peek out in rhythm.

Again. The lake. It scares me. It really does. Making towards me, throwing its white chilled claws out at me. Death surely, were I to be flung into it.

Just passed Eldorado - Port Hope. Some manufacturer. Some coloured squares and brick, a dog leashed up in a back yard. A footbridge crossed over me. A pipeline followed the fence, suddenly veering into a putrid blue shack, giving up the sprint.

I'm on a level with the lake, the white waves very close. Explosions along the elevated shore, water escaping. A dense coniferous forest, yellow weeds bending on a huge uncomfortable bed of snow. Hydro lines follow the fence, uninterrupted.

Where on earth is there room for architecture in this small town? In the straight lines following me? Structures flowing under me, over me, in instants. Beautiful plum red CP cars wait on another track. Full of something, I am sure.

Cobourg, laying low, spitting out puffs of smoke at this winter day. So much of the same now, over and over. Repetitive fields.

Ah, only fifty feet from the rolling Lake!

Oh good, more trees to hide behind. A crippled forest, too many diagonals. The unbroken fence. We have slowed. A drainage ditch, marked 1912. Small glass insulators looking like melted down diet Coke bottles controlling those lines of power.

Another track, as straight as this one. Trainless, however. Two uniform scars, a train's breadth away.

I come inside. The trainman has borrowed my papers. I notice the Queen on a quarter. Who is this queen on the back of a quarter? She'd freeze in every one of these fields. They should have a posthole digger on the quarter. This queen would look stupid and pitiful in this particular field in some kind of orange dress and hat. She's armless on the quarter and sleeveless in the snow.

Bracken. Heather. Weeds and taller weeds - trees really. Sudden elevated banks, then troughs. The fence gives in to these elevation changes and relents. It'll be back.

It has returned. There are very few gates in this fence. All closed up, like Buffalo.

I think that these hydro lines must be puppeteer's strings controlling the reflexes of Kingston. They dance and interflow

with these long distance movements.

"ETA 1:10" says the trainman in a Canadian accent, or near enough.

Roadblocks follow me, denying entry, lights flashing. From the other side, four wheel drive Broncos watch me pass, impatient.

Blemished barns again. Ranked apple orchards, at ease? I shiver as we pass over water, a small river, ice covered but for a small slivery artery of chilly movement. A small horse stable, the horses huddles together.

Blankets, quilted all in one white fabric, with hasty seams of hemp and trees, dirty hems of sanded roads, irregular corduroy rags interspersed, corn or wheat fields. Then a rare gem of cloth, coloured in the subtle dyes of rooftops, jewelled in people, stitched-in guardrails and that super fence. I'm suddenly in a racing, roaring, shuffling sewing machine.

Purely random trees now, stripped of all and everything straight.

Not even curves, desolate and broken.

Running twenty-five minutes late, near Belleview. An opportunity to sleep, before I gather the strength to jump the fence in Kingston.

Adrian Hoad-Reddick
 

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